Trials can be divided into two kinds: those that we have for a season and those which we will have for the remainder of our lives. Sometimes we fast and pray and we get the answer we want and God removes the burden and life goes back to normal. Other times we are given a burden that cannot be removed, but after much fasting and prayer, God can strengthen us through His Son to be able to carry that burden through our “new normal”.
“But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, establish, strengthen, settle you.” 1 Peter 5:10
“And now it came to pass that the burdens which were laid upon Alma and his brethren were made light; yea, the Lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease, and they did submit cheerfully and with patience to all the will of the Lord.” -Mosiah 24:15
I have felt this strength as I have carried on after the death of my son. People always say, “Oh, you’re so strong!” And to them I reply, “His strength is mine.”
This being said, something I have also pondered lately is the nature of the soul as a dual being, we are both spirit and body. And I’ve found that as I strengthen one, it strengthens the other. The monday morning after my son passed away, the first thing I wanted to do was to go for a run. As I watched the sun rise that day, I remember having this feeling of grit inside me that I wouldn’t give up, I would keep going, I would be steadfast and immoveable. I realized this spiritual grit was similar to the physical grit I felt while going on a long run, and I had a sense that the physical endurance fed my spiritual endurance. I also discovered that when I lift weights, growing in power to resist and to lift that particular weight, I feel added spiritual power to carry the burdens that are ever present. I know these bodies God has given us to house our spirits are such gifts, and that we can use both our body and our spirit, in partnership with Christ, to carry on through this mortal journey.
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